Monday, 2 March 2015

Adele’s Journey #3 | Being Self Conscious

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Can you believe it’s March already? I certainly can’t. Unfortunately, any weight I lost, I’ve put back on again by putting myself under a lot of stress.

Therefore, I’m writing myself a list of rules to go by. I can’t carry on the way I a, and even though I’m fitting into size 18’s at work, I still dread the thought of having to try clothes on.

How can anyone even be happy like this?

I’m going to Centerparcs in June with @LDNmeetup for #bloggersinvadecenterparcs. Now anyone that knows me will know how much I love Centerparcs. But the last thing I want to do is go along and be so self conscious of the way I look and not take part in things like swimming which would quite frankly ruin the event and weekend for me.

I’m also going to a festival with my family and friends and I want to be able to buy new clothes and look and feel good!

Plus every time I write posts like this I’m on the verge of crying. I want to write the positive posts where I’ve lost weight and I’m happy!

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So I’m going to do that for me! I’m well aware I make excuses and I’m yet to lost weight but I hope that it doesn’t stop you reading. I will get there and your support is invaluable!

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  1. I understand your situation as I tend to "bad-talk" myself sometimes. At least you are doing/trying something to change it but it pains me to read how much you are struggleling with it! Don't think that people will stop reading what you write or appreciate who you are because you don't look as you want to look. You are more than a number! The number of kg, the size of your clothes or even the digits of your bank account! And I'm saying this to myself as well everyday.

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  2. I can relate to a lot of this. Do you find that making 'rules' for yourself often helps in the long run, though? I found whenever I adopted that kind of thinking I would get very upset with myself if I broke a 'rule', and that would lead me into more binge eating and punishing myself... I think getting hung up on 'rules' and clothes sizes might be counterproductive. I understand wanting to lose weight very much, but it's only a small aspect of your life (although it can seem like it takes up everything sometimes), and it doesn't define you.

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  3. It's not a rule, more of a guideline. I find it does help though and currently it's helping a lot!

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